- rel: Monkey Brain, Disziplin, Youtube, self control, Youtube Addiction, Motivation, SUCKING at Getting Things Done, my yt-block story
“lack of self control” is probably not the right name for the problem… I also called it “WHAT IS IT” once, in the sense of WHAT IS IT which always drags me back into actions which don’t align with my longer term vision/plans.
the problem
Not doing the actions which would align with progress towards my longer term vision/plan and instead wasting my time with mostly (but not only) watching Youtube.
I would feel bad because I didn’t make as much progress as I wanted on my (admittedly way to big and many) projects. I would then go on to endlessly watching Youtube to escape this bad feeling (like an Addiction). While wasting my time on Youtube no progress on any projects could have happened, creating a downwards spiral. And even worse I would keep watching Youtube till late late at night meaning sleeping in, which contributed to having not motivation to do anything the next day even more…
I hated holidays because of this, as when there was no external structure (holidays, weekends) this problem was most present. During school or 9-to-5-work, where there was a fixed external structure (places I had to be with others at certain times…) it was much less of an issue.